Paradox, bastard, and fly!
So here I am, unexpectedly on The Path today, making the most of the glorious warmth of the sun despite having a shed-load of duties and deadlines on my to-do list. Sneaking a cheeky walk, so to speak. With no intention of recording anything for blogging purposes and unable to locate my camera I really am walking light. In this moment I Am Freee!
Suddenly, thoughts start to assemble and clarify in my head like clockwork and the word PARADOX springs to mind. Hmmmm… You know, that sense of everything and nothing all at once. When everything matters and yet nothing really matters, when life is not ok but deep down you just know it is, when you feel like death and yet you've never felt so alive. These moments of paradox, I have learned, are when I am at my most connected, at my serenest, aligned and balanced. In Love with Whatever is.
Bastard! I mutter to myself. Typical! All this wondrous stuff comes up when I am least prepared for it. As I laugh at myself I realise I am angry and peaceful all at the same time. More paradox. Still connected, then.
A fly lands on my chest. In my more mindful moments, rather than automatically batting away what is not wanted, I have become accustomed to letting things be. So, the fly and I travel on together for a while. I notice it is not an ordinary fly. It's wings are tall and elegant. Feeling lighter than ever I literally lean my ear in towards it just in case it has a message for me. Oh, of course. Doh! It's message is simple: fly!
I notice I am merrily chanting as I walk along. Paradox, bastard, fly! Paradox, bastard, fly! Paradox, bastard, fly! It seems a blog wants to be written after all. Although with no camera I will have to dig out an old fly picture (you should see my back catalogue! Lol). Nevertheless, all seems to be falling into place effortlessly. In fact, since my 75-year old uncle and I are going out to lunch, just the two of us for the first time, on Monday (the time I usually set aside to blog) this really is divine timing after all. Funny how choosing not to focus on the to-do list and instead do what is most joyful and effortless in the moment has resulted in stuff being ticked off the list anyway. Once again, the elegant Truth of Paradox!
(Ok, so you have to squint to see the fly in this particular picture but I figured you really didn't need to see shot of the vibrant green bluebottles and what they were feasting on!) :-)
It really is a beautiful day on The Path today. Pure blue skies and the brightest sunshine and yet it has taken me half of the journey to look up and smell the roses, so to speak. One could say I have been preoccupied and consumed by my own thoughts. Or more specifically, niggling doubts and fears. Do I follow the "expert" advice of others or do I listen to my own inner guidance? I prefer to do the latter but does that make me arrogant, or foolish perhaps?
The whole point of The Path is to let go of thinking and to clear the mind. This alone is enough to deeply reconnect us with our inherent health and wholeness. However, it is natural to take in our surroundings as we walk through life (if only to prevent ourselves from tripping over) but with a little gentle awareness it can also be incredibly enlightening. Although deep wisdom is available to us wherever we may be I notice the quieter and calmer the surroundings the more we are able to hear what it is our inner voice wants us to know. Hence, the beauty of walking in nature. And so, along with the added benefits of fresh air and exercise, The Path came into being.
At the point of looking up, I see someone approaching on the path ahead and step aside to let them pass. Suddenly, I find myself entangled in a bush of thorns. I have to smile as I carefully unhook myself in several places. So this is the wisdom of the path today. A message to unhook myself from the drama in my head. Now free to carry on my merry way I realise my question has been answered. Nice one!
What is standing out for you today? A colour, a song, a smell, a fallen tree, the trash? Whatever it is, know that it is a reflection of what is going on deep inside. A metaphor. A personal in-sight. Information that is not always accessible through the rational mind alone. We cannot get it wrong. We cannot misinterpret the signs. It matters not what meaning an "expert" might assign as much as what it means to us. When we notice and acknowledge our deepest feelings, whether they be painful, joyful, or somewhere in-between, we are reconnecting with our own down-to-earth wisdom.
In what ways are you un-earthing the wisdom of your own path today ?
Wooo, hooo! The winds are a-whippin' up on The Path today. I am reminded of the song Tsunami by DVBBS and Borgeous feat. Tinie Tempah. "Stuck in a daze I feel like I'm riding a wave. My life is a roller coaster inside of a maze. (Woo!) I hope it's a phase, I hope it's a, hope it's a phase…" It has a strong drum beat...and here we are in March. Marching on!
Somehow, amongst all the chaos, I am aware of the stillness within the movement. The joy, the beauty, the perfection within the chaos. When we are able access even the tiniest hint of stillness and perfection at our core it doesn't matter how chaotic it is outside. However wild and consuming it may be. We can enjoy the thrill of the movement. We can afford to sit back and enjoy the ride.
Feeling the excitement, I wonder how I can capture the movement of the wind in a picture. Since wind feels like spirit-in-action there is a sense I am trying to capture the un-capturable :-) I can capture the physical effect of the wind on the physical world, the collapsed tree perhaps? But no, that's far too flat for a day like today. Instead, I go with what brings a smile to my face on this fine and windy day. This tree, wearing his Sunday best!
Lots of joy to you all on your own path today…and why not wear our Sunday best everyday! :-))
How about you?
As I notice the absolutely beautiful, gorgeous, divine colours of the flowers on The Path today there is a feeling of the full spectrum being here. The whole kit and caboodle. This leads me to consider the notion that, in reality, we are all One. I think about what a lovely a concept it is but how difficult to comprehend with our rational minds. I wonder what it would be like to allow ourselves a moment of freedom to imagine What if, on some level, we are everybody else? That we are having all of these experiences even though we are only aware of our own singular experience? What if in the greater reality we are that billionaire, that homeless person, the Buddhist monk, the paedophile, the guru, the banker, the carer, the mentally ill person, the saint? What if we are already experiencing it all? Then what would we choose? Just for the fun of it?
How about you?
Why, why, why
Now, I realise broken twigs are inherently Y-shaped but they are all I seem to be noticing on The Path today. I find myself repeatedly chanting why, why, why, why, why… Curious that, as lately I've stopped needing or wanting to know the how's and why's when it comes to the finer details in life. Instead, daring to take a risk and trust that a higher power (of which I am a part) has all the details covered. Divine orchestration, so to speak. Choosing to rest in the knowledge that there is only ever one answer to the question Why? That being; LOVE.
Have a fabulous day <3
Trained in a depth, buddhist-based psychotherapy, using everyday outer world experiences to develop inner wisdom, one day at a time.