I've never quite walked The Path as I have today, that is, with such child-like enthusiasm. Earlier, the delivery people had said I was 86 on their list of 89 deliveries and that my package might not arrive until early evening. Accepting it was unlikely I would get to do the walk today I noticed I felt quite sad about it, in a way that wouldn't have bothered me before The Blog. Hmmm...surely I could get away with doing the walk before it arrives. However, since the package was my daughter's highly anticipated birthday scooter I really couldn't bring myself to take the risk. So, when the package arrived shortly before the children were due home from school I shot out of the door like a greyhound from a trap!
The first thing that catches my eye is this bouquet-like flower and, feeling a little guilty that life seems to be going so well, the words Life is a gift...accept it! spring to mind. I have to agree. There is a sense that as human beings we are constantly feeling squeezed (limited time frame, 2% battery life on my picture phone, and a potential financial disaster to name but a few) and yet beyond our humanness there is a sense that we are totally free.
The weather today is surprisingly warm and sunny and it strikes me this is exactly how I am feeling since deciding to start this blog. Suddenly I notice my thoughts going something like this; you can't go blogging about joy, joy, joy all the time. It's unrealistic. People will think you're in cloud cuckoo land. You'll bore them... (and so it goes on). Phew! Taking a few deep breaths I stop and notice the feeling of utter strangulation around these thoughts and remind myself that, for perhaps the first time in my life, this isn't about trying to impress or gain approval from anyone else. Its about doing something fun for me. Yes, I am now well-versed in my own suffering but the real challenge is, can I embrace this sense of new-found joy?
P.s. it tickled me that as I typed the words that were in my head, the predictive text feature on my phone re-wrote it as Life is shift...accept it! Equally true! :-))
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