Paradox, bastard, and fly!
So here I am, unexpectedly on The Path today, making the most of the glorious warmth of the sun despite having a shed-load of duties and deadlines on my to-do list. Sneaking a cheeky walk, so to speak. With no intention of recording anything for blogging purposes and unable to locate my camera I really am walking light. In this moment I Am Freee!
Suddenly, thoughts start to assemble and clarify in my head like clockwork and the word PARADOX springs to mind. Hmmmm… You know, that sense of everything and nothing all at once. When everything matters and yet nothing really matters, when life is not ok but deep down you just know it is, when you feel like death and yet you've never felt so alive. These moments of paradox, I have learned, are when I am at my most connected, at my serenest, aligned and balanced. In Love with Whatever is.
Bastard! I mutter to myself. Typical! All this wondrous stuff comes up when I am least prepared for it. As I laugh at myself I realise I am angry and peaceful all at the same time. More paradox. Still connected, then.
A fly lands on my chest. In my more mindful moments, rather than automatically batting away what is not wanted, I have become accustomed to letting things be. So, the fly and I travel on together for a while. I notice it is not an ordinary fly. It's wings are tall and elegant. Feeling lighter than ever I literally lean my ear in towards it just in case it has a message for me. Oh, of course. Doh! It's message is simple: fly!
I notice I am merrily chanting as I walk along. Paradox, bastard, fly! Paradox, bastard, fly! Paradox, bastard, fly! It seems a blog wants to be written after all. Although with no camera I will have to dig out an old fly picture (you should see my back catalogue! Lol). Nevertheless, all seems to be falling into place effortlessly. In fact, since my 75-year old uncle and I are going out to lunch, just the two of us for the first time, on Monday (the time I usually set aside to blog) this really is divine timing after all. Funny how choosing not to focus on the to-do list and instead do what is most joyful and effortless in the moment has resulted in stuff being ticked off the list anyway. Once again, the elegant Truth of Paradox!
(Ok, so you have to squint to see the fly in this particular picture but I figured you really didn't need to see shot of the vibrant green bluebottles and what they were feasting on!) :-)
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