As I begin walking The Path today there is a feeling of change in the air. Not to come, but a feeling of being right in the midst of it. Everything looks the same, yet feels different. Its slightly unnerving despite trusting deep down that all is well.
Having treated myself to a snazzy new camera I notice a slightly flat feeling as I don't yet have the knowledge or experience to make the most of all the exciting new features. I know, I protest as I hear the words, All in good time.
I also notice that I am pre-occupied with taking vibrant pictures and yet the light (or lack of it) seems to dictate that today everything naturally has a softer hue. I notice the pressure I can sometimes put upon myself to be vibrant. I realise I could stop doing that. I could relax with how I am right now. A little deflated. Despite having a lot on my to-do list at the moment I could (as the ball on the path reminds me) allow myself to depress somewhat. Let it all go. That way, I might just find the energy and the joy to carry on doing the things that really do need to be done.
As we evolve on our path the journey within can be tiring at times and perhaps, just like my camera with all its unexplored capabilities, it can take a while for us to appreciate our full potential. So, instead of racing ever onward I think today I'll just take softer steps and deeper breaths.
Trained in a depth, buddhist-based psychotherapy, using everyday outer world experiences to develop inner wisdom, one day at a time.