Seeing this empty eggshell on The Path today I am aware of something new having hatched, not only in my life but, in life itself. For as long as I can remember I have felt excited about being 44 years of age, certain that it was going to be a good year. My year. (Actually my very favourite number is 4444 but I'm not sure I'll make that age!) Now I'm here, now I've arrived at 44 it is dawning on me that perhaps it isn't just about my age and me but This Age, and Us. As if my age were just a marker for me. A post-it note to self, as it were, that THIS IS WHEN THE BIG THING IS HAPPENING.
My life has taken a complete shift away from the path I thought I was on, which resulted in a period of deep personal crisis that lasted from December 2012 until May of this year. Eventually I realised the deep suffering I was experiencing was resistance to following my gut instinct and my heart. On reflection, as torturous as it was at the time, it was an opportunity to release a lot of old debilitating habits and patterns of mine. To start afresh. Lighter, and less burdened.
I see the planet and humanity as a whole going through this same major shift in consciousness. A time when the power of Humanity coming together on a global scale, acting as one, is outshining our old polarised way of being on this Earth such as thoughts, beliefs and judgments around; us and them, good and bad, rich and poor, dark and light, right and wrong, and so on. Yes, there is currently a lot of disruption, fear and pain on the planet but, in truth, it is our old way of being (at both a personal and a collective level) that is collapsing in order to make way for a new way of being. An agonising process perhaps, yet vital to our evolution into a better way of being for all.
On the walk today I notice a carpet of green grass forming on the brown ploughed field as it awaits re-sowing and I realise you can't stop the natural movement towards growth, neither nature's nor our own. We can try...and wear ourselves out in the process (just like my own resistance to moving away from the known, and into the Unknown), but change always comes. What is new and as yet unknown, whether at a personal or global level, may well stir up fear, confusion, panic, and doubt but learning to ride these natural evolutionary waves of change (preferably with long, deep breaths) gives us all the opportunity to experience a more joyful co-existence on this planet.
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