Once again I begin The Path with a cracking headache. I feel like a porcelain doll that has been hit on the head with a sharp implement, the impact of which is causing my exterior (my façade) to fall away piece by piece. It strikes me something is going on around transcending our human form. Transcending limitation.
The paradox is, in order to transcend something we must first accept it. Since what we resist, persists; we work with it.
Over the last few weeks I have felt under an enormous amount of pressure. In trying to make a dream of mine a reality I have stretched myself to my limits financially, emotionally and spiritually. This, I always thought, is what it takes to be "successful". It doesn't feel very good. What started as a remarkably easy process has suddenly been met with block after block. I am running out of options; and each one is applying a tighter and tighter squeeze. Today I am questioning whether this particular dream is worth pursuing any further. It breaks my heart to let it go but right now I suspect it might be the best thing all round.
Ironically, the blocks are a direct result of changing our family business last year from a partnership to a limited company. At that time (being the queen of metaphor), I was slightly perturbed by the thought of being limited in any way at all. Surely this can't be good, I thought to myself. I'm all for expansion but partnership sounded much nicer.
I wanted this particular dream for many reasons. To have greater financial abundance and security, to create a peaceful sanctuary to which I and others might retreat, a space in which to experience health and wholeness, somewhere to walk in nature and appreciate the rising and the setting of the sun. A place I can write and connect with Infinite Potential.
Today, as I walk The Path and ponder all of this I hear the words FORGET THE DREAM; ENTER THE REALITY. Slowly it dawns on me I have all this already, right where I am. Moreover, without the distraction and the financial pressure of 'the dream' I can experience all of the above with greater ease and grace. In truth, choosing not to pursue the dream right now actually creates much more time and space and energy. Here too, the potential is infinite.
Suddenly I am filled with immense appreciation for the power of limitation. As intense as it might feel in the moment, the pressure of being limited forces us to be creative (the whole point of Creation!). Being re-source-ful allows us to use what we already have and make decisions from where we are, rather than where we would like to be. As a result of working creatively within our boundaries those boundaries begin to expand. In other words, by accepting and working within the limitations of being human, we are able to expand our experience to include our Divinity. Our Unlimited Potential.
When a porcelain doll is smashed and its exterior falls away, what is left?
A: Nothing…no pressure, no stress, no confinement, no limitation.
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