As I walk The Path today there is a bright blue sky. It is a beautifully sunny day. Frosty. Chilly. But gorgeous. My thoughts wander to the creative process and what a joy it is. Being back in the flow. I have an image of all the chaos before me, and around me as I proceed to write my book. And yet I have a sense of the pearls of wisdom that are floating around amid the confusion and disarray. I imagine I have a giant needle and thread and gently, one by one, I am taking those pearls of wisdom and threading them into a necklace.
The path is incredibly muddy but I am not feeling perturbed. In fact, I notice I am walking with a bit of a swagger. It's quite amusing. I envisage the guys that strut with their arms wide and loose, taking one step forward and then almost dragging the other leg slowly into place. Making a point, it seems. This is how I roll (no matter how crazy it might appear to the outside world!) It takes courage, I feel, to fearlessly express oneself like that. Through movement. The total embodiment of who we are in the moment.
When it comes to the creative process I notice I'm no longer worrying about having it all sussed and perfected before I begin but just diving in anyway. Finding my way as I go along. Noticing that although I'm alone, I am connected. Sharing feedback, and mutual support. Noticing sometimes my writing ignites a spark in another and at other times there is silence. Being grateful either way. Happy to commit to expressing myself and the joy of the process. I notice some paranoia that there must be some unwritten rule (or perhaps a written one!) that it's not cool to blog about blogging and yet it happens to be where the joy is right now. Where the lessons reside. The current challenge being to express myself unashamedly from hereon in.
I recently began to feel quite heavy around the usually delightful process of blogging. I felt as if I were losing my way a little. Getting blogged down :-)) Despite the dip in energy, I chose to trust the process and stay with what was. Allowing myself to gently move through it, moment-by-moment. Having re-emerged, I appreciate that with the heaviness came clarity. It enabled me to define what is wanted and what is not. I realise the heaviness was simply me trying to fit a book into a blog. A large square peg into a small round hole. It just didn't fit. However, with this renewed sense of place and what belongs where I notice managing my time and my energy is much more effortless. I feel freer and more able to walk the walk.
As I'm walking I'm thinking perhaps I don't need to transcribe this voice memo. Maybe I could listen to it and go straight-to-blog. I notice how keeping (visible) paper records gives me a sense of security. That there is some level of mistrust regarding the internet and computers and the transient nature of digital data. How it can without warning simply disappear. Once again, I am finding the process of trusting the invisible fascinating. Quite liberating.
On the final part of the path I notice a bright green Mountain Dew Energy drink bottle. It amuses me as my pet name for my blog and book is DEW (as in, Down-to-Earth Wisdom). I smile as I wonder if there is a 'mountain of energy' available for DEW? It certainly feels that way. I am feeling incredibly supported right now. Momentarily, I notice some shame. People might think me naive taking counsel from a bottle of Mountain Dew! But quickly I return to centre. It doesn't matter. It brings me clarity. And regardless of outside opinion, I realise...it's the way I roll! :-))
As I step into the house it seems there is still more to say. Yesterday it dawned on me that my book is essentially about recognising and relaxing into the truth of who we are - One Life Force Energy - whether it be described as Flow, Creativity, Sexuality, Love, God, Source, or any other name. It is who we are. We don't do creativity. We are the creative process. Creation, itself. So, with this in mind, I wonder can I allow myself to get right in there, straight-to-blog, go with the flow, splodge all over the page, make a mess, dive in?
The answer, it seems, is Yes! Yes! Yes! ;-))
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